Monday, January 21, 2019

Longshot

Nothing to do with the title. I was just listening to Longshot by Catfish and The Bottlemen. It is a nice, alternative rock song, that makes you feel cool while walking *just sayin.

Anyway, I talked quite a lot today. So, I'm actually not so much a quiet person but I guess I haven't really given a lot of chances to communicate with my coworkers all this time.

Let's start with the first time I met them. They were all chatty, they got their own clicque already, and I just didn't know how to talk to them and be myself without giving out a 'freakish' vibe, because I tend to be cringey and weird.

That's why I spent most of my time being quiet. I was too scared to even do anything.

But I don't know why I feel different today.

I met them and asked them things.
I tried to speak slowly, clearly, and most importantly, firmly.
I tried to slip out some jokes, and even though it wasn't that funny, I kept going as if that was the most hilarious shit I've ever known.

And then miraculously it went pretty well.

Maybe there's some other factors as well, but nevertheless it was still a good day for an introvert like me.

Sunday, January 20, 2019

Whatever

What's around me now:

1. Homo Deus book by Yuval Noah Harari. Right next to me on my bed here.

2. My laptop. Brand new. Bought it because I was moving to work in a neighbour country. After using it for months, well... I could honestly say it was pretty good. Sleek. Plays music clearly. Wide screen. Asus A407U if you're wondering what it is.

3. The new speaker from my boss. The gift from our little office-secret-santa sessions. Pretty useful, I gotta say.

And the nice thing is, I finally got to spend my day off watching the drizzling rain from the window. The aircon's blowing softly behind me. I love just how peaceful it is.

Talking about peace, nowadays I guess it's some kind of a privilege. Not everyone could spend their days not thinking about shit that came into their lives.

For me, it's definitely what I need right now.

Solitude.

Peace.

Thank you, rainie.